1.
He looks at me like I am the most beautiful thing to exist.
He touches me with tenderness.
He can read through me like a book.
He laughs the most with me.
He has healed me in ways he doesn’t know.
And yet that is all it is.
Not something, not nothing.
That leaves my body aching for hours
and my heart craving for days.
2.
You looked like danger.
I knew that, yet I still opened up my heart to you.
You were tender. I craved every interaction.
The lingering hands every time we said goodbye,
the silent I want you’s.
But I should have known you were danger,
because in the end you stung
and it hurt like a thousand needles.
3.
I leave scars.
Every time you try to forget me
they will be there to remind you
that you know me.
That my lips once grazed you.
That my tenderness once embraced you.
You won’t forget me even if you wanted to.
4.
It’s scary to think that I’d choose you again.
5.
The amount of hours you cross my mind.
If I were billing you
I’d have bought the Mercedes G-Wagon already.
The only taste she remembers is of your soft lips.
6.
It took a lot to get here.
But the truth is,
I wanted you to want me.
Not just to fuck me,
but to need me, to love me,
to choose to be with me,
to hold my hand.
But you only wanted to fuck me.
You even called me your little experiment.
Did you know how much I loved you?
Did you feel loved by me?
So stop looking at me with those eyes.
I’m not your vacation.
I want to be your home.
7.
You felt like home.
Just for a moment.